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Before having a baby I’ve always thought that bottle feeding wasn’t going to be an option.
Everyone used to tell me that breastfeeding was better, healthier and cheaper and honestly, it looks so good and easy in the movies.
Well, after having my little one I tried pretty hard. No one told me that it could be a point were your nipples could even bleed. And in my case, they did.
I tried very hard for a few weeks but it wasn’t happening. The baby wasn’t getting enough milk so he was crying like crazy during the nights and waking up too often during the day.
After those weeks were I was crying every time that the feeding time approached, my husband and I decided to buy a pump (because formula wasn’t an option… how was I going to give my baby formula having milk inside me that was much better – how bad mom was I going to be?)
So I got a pump. At the beginning, I was feeding my kid every 2 hours, what means that I had to pump the milk for around 30 minutes, feed the baby for another 30 minutes, then change his nappy and get him to sleep. Overall, it used to take me 2 hours to do all that.
You do the maths… he was eating every 2 hours and it was taking me 2 hours. That’s basically too full on. Not time for me to eat, not time for me to have a shower, clean, etc.
At the beginning it was manageable because my husband and mum were at home, but after a few weeks when my husband was going back to work and my mom back to Spain, was something unthinkable of.
All the midwifes that came home to check up on the baby and me, used to ask me if I was going to go back to breastfeed, but that wasn’t an option.
After visiting a doctor, he recommended me to take a pill that will cut off the milk. I got it but I said to myself “I’ll wait as much as I can before giving up on breastfeeding”
Well, after sleeping on the pillow that same night, I woke up and took the pill and gave my kid formula for the first time. The feeling was horrible, I thought I was the worst mom on hearth as I felt I wasn’t doing enough for my newborn. Next day I still felt bad, but a bit better, and everyday was a bit easier till a point that formula was better than I thought it was going to be.
I’m not saying any of the options is the right thing to do, what I’m trying to say is that it doesn’t matter what the other moms are doing, you have and must do whatever works better for you.
Then I started asking other people, other mums. Some of them breastfeed for 6 months, other for 12 and others not even for 1 day, and I realized that I was the best mom I could be. I was giving my child the best option for both of us. The best option for him, because he had enough milk every time he needed it, the best option for me, because in my case, breastfeeding was killing me and making me unhappy, so formula was the best way to be mentally healthy and be able to enjoy my little boy.
That’s is why I wanted to write this post, because I would like to tell all the future moms not to worry. You’ll do it great and you’ll find the right way for you. Just not forget about this, every baby is different and so is every mom.